When the rest of my batch were in night clubs and dancing the night away with wine and good food, I was at home breastfeeding my beautiful new-born who looked more like my sister than myself. Don’t get me wrong- I loved to be where I was, but I also think of where I could have been had I waited a few more years to get myself a child. But then, there is nothing to regret. All my life’s dreams may have been put on hold because I had to invest for this child rather than myself I have realized just how much a parent’s love can do for her child.
As the days and weeks went by, I slowly became a paranoid woman. Every inch of noise is considered as non-permissible in the room because my baby is a light-sleeper and no one has the privilege to wake her up. Each and every tiny aspect of our room must be clean and anything that is out of place should be straightened out, I didn’t want any chances of unwelcome guests that crawl at night. All food intake and formulas should be bought in stores that have popular and credible names, we can never be too sure if they are expired or have been kept in non-hygienic stores.
Each and every accomplishment and new things made by the little girl was a revelation – I was there when she first smiled, had her first tears and closed and opened her hands. Admittedly, my work didn’t allow me to see much more than that because I worked in a different city where she had to be away from me. Those were the hardest of times because I missed her so much, and envied her father every time he shared another milestone, another new learning made by the tot.
As the months continue to go by, she became an outstanding child. She sat on her own, walked on her own and loved everything we put on her mouth. She ate a lot like a big person. She sleeps in unexpected moments. She walks, and then runs, without us ever teaching her. She absolutely loves animals. She is obsessed with her nursery rhymes videos. She does not ever want her curly hair pulled into a bun. As a parent, I glow with happiness and pride at the kind of child I have helped put in the world. I believe most parents would say the same about their children – they are always beautiful, always brilliant, and always exceptional. Each child, to their parent, is exceptionally special.
Pretty soon I will be a parent twice over. I will give birth to a baby boy by the end of January – and will undergo the same cycle of sleepless nights, sore breasts from too much suckling, hurt legs from lying in bed too much and the consistent lack of sleep each and every day of the first six months of his new and beautiful life. Aside from that, my partner and I will now have two children in our hands – beautiful angels who will make our room look and smell like hell, but will forever change our lives.
Author: Maria Jevska Nicolau is a 23-year old trainer on sales excellence who has a long love history with writing and won many journalism awards at college and region. She has a one year old daughter and a baby boy on the way. She likes Harry Potter and it is her ambition to write a book.
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