I was nervous when I found out I was pregnant.
First, I thought, what would happen to my family now that I would have a child of my own?
But then, when I go back to that time, I was all alone in the bathroom, washing my clothes, the pregnancy kit in my hand, the result boggling my head – I was frozen.
I was petrified because I did not believe it, but it is in my hands. I did not believe it because I did not fancy children. I did not believe it because I did not know how to take care of babies. I did not believe it because there was another human being inside of me, and I did not know what to eat, how to sleep, when to get a pre-natal, and all other things a pregnant woman should know.
I was just 21 then, just got promoted at work, was about to work on a career that will go up the ladder, sending my sister and brother to school, a writer who had time to write poems and a reader who had time to read her favorite books.
I was this young woman who was ready to fly, and when I knew of my pregnancy, I felt my wings got clipped. I would have to stay at home nursing a newborn human rather than be in the office on a Saturday night doing extra work, which I love. I would have to change diapers on a daily basis and not be out with my friends, drinking and partying. I thought I would be going on dates and trips and make a lot of memories with my boyfriend, just the two of us.
And yet, life has its own ways of giving you blessings.
I was a woman filled with dreams and hopes not only for myself, but also for my family. I thought that with the right time, at the right age, when I am financially and emotionally capable, God will give me this child. But He chooses to hand it over earlier than what was necessary, and I thought I was not going to be able to handle it.
Being a mother has its ups and downs, its joys and sorrows.
However, during the course of my pregnancy, I was amazed at the changes that were happening to me physically, and emotionally. They were not joking when they said that being pregnant was not a stroll in the park. I struggled for each and every day that I get tired walking for a long period of time and that I get hungry after a few hours, that it’s hard for me to sit because I was gaining weight like a dinosaur. My emotions were on a circus too – I am happy, then I am sad.
As a woman who awaited her entrance to motherhood, my boyfriend has become my partner, my best friend, my nurse, my councilor, my chef. I was happy that I was being taken care of; however, I was sad that our times together, just us two, will be over soon.
When I gave birth to my little angel, I swore it was not going to happen again.
It was excruciating pain like I have never felt before, and I know it is cliche but honestly, when you see the human being that stayed in your body for nine long months, you become the happiest person in the world.
I am now a grown woman, who at the age of 23 has matured more than I ever thought I would be. From a career woman to a mother, I see the changes that have happened to my life, and I like what I see.
Now that I have my own family, people would think that I would just as easily give up on my dreams because I have to focus on my child. I think they’re wrong. I know that for my child to have the happy life she deserves, I have to pursue my dreams so I can be able to provide for her and give her the happiness that she is worthy of.
This is for you Aravis, and this is for our future.
Author : Maria Jevska Nicolau is a 23-year old trainer on sales excellence who has a long love history with writing and won many journalism awards at college and region. She has a one year old daughter and a baby boy on the way. She likes Harry Potter and it is her ambition to write a book.
Watch out space for detailed blog on motherhood experience from a young mom that transformed her and her learning's.
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First, I thought, what would happen to my family now that I would have a child of my own?
But then, when I go back to that time, I was all alone in the bathroom, washing my clothes, the pregnancy kit in my hand, the result boggling my head – I was frozen.
I was petrified because I did not believe it, but it is in my hands. I did not believe it because I did not fancy children. I did not believe it because I did not know how to take care of babies. I did not believe it because there was another human being inside of me, and I did not know what to eat, how to sleep, when to get a pre-natal, and all other things a pregnant woman should know.
I was just 21 then, just got promoted at work, was about to work on a career that will go up the ladder, sending my sister and brother to school, a writer who had time to write poems and a reader who had time to read her favorite books.
I was this young woman who was ready to fly, and when I knew of my pregnancy, I felt my wings got clipped. I would have to stay at home nursing a newborn human rather than be in the office on a Saturday night doing extra work, which I love. I would have to change diapers on a daily basis and not be out with my friends, drinking and partying. I thought I would be going on dates and trips and make a lot of memories with my boyfriend, just the two of us.
And yet, life has its own ways of giving you blessings.
I was a woman filled with dreams and hopes not only for myself, but also for my family. I thought that with the right time, at the right age, when I am financially and emotionally capable, God will give me this child. But He chooses to hand it over earlier than what was necessary, and I thought I was not going to be able to handle it.
Being a mother has its ups and downs, its joys and sorrows.
However, during the course of my pregnancy, I was amazed at the changes that were happening to me physically, and emotionally. They were not joking when they said that being pregnant was not a stroll in the park. I struggled for each and every day that I get tired walking for a long period of time and that I get hungry after a few hours, that it’s hard for me to sit because I was gaining weight like a dinosaur. My emotions were on a circus too – I am happy, then I am sad.
As a woman who awaited her entrance to motherhood, my boyfriend has become my partner, my best friend, my nurse, my councilor, my chef. I was happy that I was being taken care of; however, I was sad that our times together, just us two, will be over soon.
When I gave birth to my little angel, I swore it was not going to happen again.
It was excruciating pain like I have never felt before, and I know it is cliche but honestly, when you see the human being that stayed in your body for nine long months, you become the happiest person in the world.
I am now a grown woman, who at the age of 23 has matured more than I ever thought I would be. From a career woman to a mother, I see the changes that have happened to my life, and I like what I see.
Now that I have my own family, people would think that I would just as easily give up on my dreams because I have to focus on my child. I think they’re wrong. I know that for my child to have the happy life she deserves, I have to pursue my dreams so I can be able to provide for her and give her the happiness that she is worthy of.
This is for you Aravis, and this is for our future.
Author : Maria Jevska Nicolau is a 23-year old trainer on sales excellence who has a long love history with writing and won many journalism awards at college and region. She has a one year old daughter and a baby boy on the way. She likes Harry Potter and it is her ambition to write a book.
Watch out space for detailed blog on motherhood experience from a young mom that transformed her and her learning's.
Next blog from author I am my daughter's daughter
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